What is "Normal"?

How time flies…

Hello again. You will all be so happy to know, I am still alive just been so busy of late that the time flies away and most of the time without my permission!

I’m currently very caught up in ‘King Leah’ which will be running in conjunction with the show “Brush up your Shakespeare” from the 3rd to the 7th of October. I think it will be a very good show – I hope! Either way, I’m really enjoying it and have realised just how much I have missed doing theatre like this – hell it’s all the way back since school that I did theatre and that is a long time! The other day I had an audition with ‘Theory X’ and I came out with such a high…. It was truly amazing! I haven’t had that feeling for AGES!!! That is the one thing I love about stage – it has this amazing power over me and just fills me up beyond all understanding – it is the best feeling ever!!! I love it!

Other than that I’m unfortunately going to be another year older soon which is a very scary thought considering I don’t know where all the time goes and I swear I still feel like I’m sixteen! I can remember that birthday, in fact I can still remember my thirteenth birthday and my eleventh and even though on one hand it feels like yesterday it also feels like centuries ago! Have I learnt anything in this last year? Have I learnt anything in the past ten years? Yes, I’ve learnt that it really is a pain getting older and the decisions and responsibilities get even more impossible. For some reason we have this unrealistic thought when we are younger that it’s fun being an “adult” but in all truth when you get to be an adult (apparently), you suddenly realise that childhood and teenage hood was so much better! For one thing your parents were “right” and the adults got to make all the decisions in your life. Now your parents are looking to you for the advice and hoping you can make the decisions for them and you! The only choice I would like to face in the day is whether I should or shouldn’t get out of bed….however, this is apparently not a choice?!

I’ve made a good friend in ‘King Leah’ but like all of us when we were his age, he thinks he hates his life and hates everything around him. I can see something he can’t see yet, that I know one day he will be great in whatever he will end up doing. He has a good mind and has so many possibilities but all he sees at the moment is all the mistakes of the past and all the difficulties of the future. I wish I was his age again (nineteen) and I could redo my life of the last few years because I know I would do it a lot differently. He wishes he had a “normal” life like everyone else. My thought is that everyone does have a normal life according to whom or what they are. What we see in their lives is not the reality but what we perceive – in the same way, they look at us and think we have the normal life and they don’t. Everything is relative. The grass is not actually greener on the other side it’s just up to us what we make of the grass under our own feet. Procrastination is the worst crime ever and I’m the worst offender. Why leave off what you can do today for tomorrow? Tomorrow may not come and even if does there might be something else to concentrate on.

So here it is people! Carpe diem! Even if what you hope is going to happen doesn’t happen and that door closes don’t ignore the other door that opens… Fate is what you make of it. So if tomorrow doesn’t come let me tell you NOW that YOU are important and YOU matter and someone out there thinks you are wonderful even if it is your dog, cat or for me, my parrot and my mother (well, sometimes)!

LOVE LIFE AND MAKE IT LOVE YOU!